[	mood	|	erhaeh3h35h	]
[	music	|	<@<P!"@<4p2tomtg4tg2	]

FUCKING                                      STUPID

FUCKING                                      STUPID

FUCKING                                      STUPID

FUCKING                                      STUPID

FUCKING                                      STUPID

FUCKING                                      STUPID

[	mood	|	contemplative	]
[	music	|	Lover I Dont Need To Love	]

Yeah - just another boring weekend.

on another note, Im happy I got a new "old" camera- its new to me, but its a old camera, I love it - im gonna make art with it.

ok well - whats been on my mind lately

I am lonely and im gonna deal with that starting next week

I need a serious routine change im tired of doing the same thing everyday

im gonna get a job soon so that i can get a car, and go out, take people places with me, and hang out more often with people

Im not stressed out as much as I was, someone helped me with that - The way they helped. they opened up to me and made me realize somethings I needed that- reassurance always makes me smile and makes me think better, Ive gotten alot of reassurance in the past week, most people dont know of what, but ive gotten it, it makes me feel good

I get good feelings when i know good things are gonna happen to me

I get happy when people tell me things that im not expecting to hear everyday

I get happy when people suprise me by showing me something i havent seen in forever

I get happy when a certain person can express there feelings for me on a different level

Im done , Goodnight

I love you <3 - well Maybe ;)

<3/adrian

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happy Birthday MARITZA/ <3

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I hope you have a great day <3

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ps: <3 Clyde Misses bonnie

psss: I miss my penguin :(

[	mood	|	contemplative	]
[	music	|	A plain Morning	]

why cant I just see past it..?

I really dont know what to think..

[	mood	|	numb	]
[	music	|	I love you..	]

Life is short so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truly, and forgive quickly..

[	mood	|	indifferent	]
[	music	|	Before Today- Pierce the Veil	]

its so hard to compare when ive already wasted all my youth..

I wish some people saw me as something different, instead of still believing im something im not.

I guess all my chances flew by to prove that im different from the rest

All the other fishes Died - When is it my turn - It makes no sense while im still swimming

Females-Women-Girls- what ever you want to call them , There just as equal as every other human . Theres no reason they should be deprived of there feelings just because they express them undoubtfully - I wish some would see why I write the things I write.

Maybe someone is still blind by the past but ,Some people never realize whats there till its not anymore - It hurts to know I could fail then again it hurts to know that I might not even try.

I wanna be seen as the person i am on the inside ,Rather then the person that stereo types built - I just wish A person would see what I have to offer. If the first attempt failed and they just accept that for what it is, a failure, Then It should be noted and dealt with.

----------sometimes i think im dying but i wake up and realize its just me reliving what ive been through.

[[ It does scare me to think that Maybe I wont see the day That our hands hug again.]]

<3 Blank walls are staring into my lonely eyes ///

[	mood	|	stressed	]
[	music	|	Short Stories With Tragic endings	]

IM CONTENT WITH LOSING:

lets see..

 I know I shouldnt be worrying about alot of the things that im worrying about, but I do anyways - well I droped the whole thing on being depressed cause that was a waste of time and I was just hurting myself and other people. Ok ,- Still stressed out though, Stress always finds its way to me, whether it be physical , or mental  stress- I need something In my life thats gonna get me away from that - I dont want to have to say its gonna be a person thats gonna help me - but It would be nice - Im not asking for anything - but a helping hand could do alot : well this is just whats on my mind.

DISCONTENT HERE AND THERE:

oh, Of coarse

We all have our days were we hate who we are, and we dont really love the person we have turned into, But see- .. THATS LIFE SORRY :).. haha.. - Well there are other human beings with bigger problems then me - but that doesnt mean my world doesnt effect me - cause if i KEEP thinking about everyone else or helping everyone when will i ever get to fix my own issues.. THATS just something im gonna have to figure out. ok so - im done here- dont ask where this thought came from, but obviously its been boggling in my brain so it wanted to come out : ..

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ok so heres some things for no reason lets see if you can figure out why i wrote them down :

• Im lonely >:|
• I miss the joys of having a girlfriend
• I wish I could show someone what they mean to me
• I wish people werent stubborn or thick headed
• I dont like when you do that
• I really dont know why I put that last one ^
• I think I want my hair to grow already
• I think I need to a Job
• I Need a FUCKING car
• I got a crush on this person <<<<
• I care about you
• I like this person...     <<>>
• Im also in love with this person  < >
• I need more options --------------------->

ok goodnight <3 you figure out what they all mean then talk to me

B..Y..E  >:I

[	mood	|	contemplative	]
[	music	|	[Saves the day-I'm sorry im leaving]	]

Happy happy Thanks Giving Everyone.. <3

I hope you all eat a big chicken with the people you love.[<3]

and if you think you dont have no one to love.. Then Love yourself because you have to learn to love yourself before you love anyone else.- thats something alot of us havent learned to do.

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on another note

Alot of things happend to me but the most important was when I grew up in a short amount of time.. realized what my problems were accepted them and took care of them. If can keep this up, getting rid of my problems, I can be more of myself then i have been lately

It sucks cause alot of the new people Ive met havent really seen the real me.. Like when im happy everyday and always laughing, smiling ,saying hi.

sorry to those who had to go through this with me, But i thank you all for standing around, even though theres very few who have stood around with me

i love you for that <3

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Im in love with someone

but thats for me to know                       well and maybe that person to

If i could get the girl I loved these flowers i know shed smile :)

But how many of the guys that are trying to get with her know she loves Plumerias..

especially the pink pretty kind :)

[adrian]-<3

[	mood	|	lazy	]
[	music	|	Seven stories Fallen::Her bleeding Eyes	]

OK..            I havent written in this thing in like forever.. but yeah, lots of things have happend. No one really wants to know sOOOOOOOOOO , im not gonna say..

I just wanna Say hi.. give shout outs to all these people who are great to me :

<3 George-cause your my nigga  and i <3 you :)

<3 Shanon- always.. cause you pack it the best <3

<3 Darryl- your small and asian.. and cant see higher then my shoulder :)

<3 Maritza- <3 <3 <3 you know you mean more then alot to me, but less then alittle bit :D <3

<3 Michael- YOU .. god your wonderful

<3 Jenn- you always make me laugh when i dont wanna :D

<3 Kristi-  you have been there even when you didnt have to <3.. thanks

<3- to all these people cause theyve all made me laugh, happy. or smile in some way when shit goes wrong. And you all know youve played a role in my life soooo COOKIES FOR EVERYONE!..on this list :)

ps.. I miss my dad

p.s.s..-I heart my penguin..